My mind is buzzing with so many things right now, and my heart is truly heavy. The true blessing of Christmas is having Christ. I think about all the things that I have been through, and how I could have never made it with out Him. I think about people that have to go through things and live this crazy life with out Jesus Christ, or the power of the Holy Ghost. I look at all the friends of mine that are backslidden or struggling in their faith and my heart is broken. Even though I know God is the ONLY way to make it, I’ve been there, and you just can’t tell people to turn to Him. Immediately Romans 5:1-8 comes to mind:
Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience, hope: And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us. For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.
He is our hope.
He is our peace.
I have entered the world of Ministry training. I went to Bible college in 2010, but I only stayed one semester. We learned a lot in that one semester, I just didn’t feel that it was what I needed to be at that point in my life. When I say I learned a lot, I learned A LOT. Mostly life experiences, but it was great. I made some good friends that I am still in contact with, that are now helping me in this journey. To say that I am scared is an understatement. When I told my pastor that I felt the call of God on my life, I told him that I was wanting to preach. ThenI had to clarify and tell him that God wants me to preach, that I don’t want to. I, of course, want to do what God wants me to do. I have a huge fear of publicly speaking. I know that I will most likely cry the whole time, or speak in tongues after 3.5 seconds. One of the first things you have to do when entering into ministry is to find mentors. Well, when I was at Bible college, they wanted us to do that, and I couldn’t find any, including my own pastor, who told me he was too busy. And that wasn’t the first time I had a pastor tell me that they were too busy. And side note time, if you’re a pastor and some young person ones to you and asks you to mentor them, I think that you should do everything in your dead best effort to mentor them. It crushed me twice. Now, I am strong enough to deal with it, but what a shame that a young person would go to the man of God and seek out spiritual guidance and be rejected. So when your young people don’t show up to church and get involved with the world, don’t blame anyone but yourself. End of rant. Anyway, when it came to mind that I had to find a mentor, I was a little shaken up. Because of the previous experiences. But maybe when I tried before it wasn’t in God’s plan, or maybe that was God’s plan. When I searched this time, I found some amazing tools and amazing people that are now integral to what I will become as a mentor. It really excites me. I dream about preaching. I dream about God using me and anointing me to preach the Truth of this Acts 2:38 Gospel!
I have started the journey of finding mentors in the ministry that God has called me to. If you happen to stumble upon this and are looking for mentors, try this great tool.
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